“Am I enough?” Has God ever asked you this?
Is God enough, even if nothing else is going right?
“I hear, and my body trembles; my lips quiver at the sound; rottenness enters into my bones; my legs tremble beneath me. Yet I will quietly wait for the day of trouble to come upon people who invade us. Though the fig tree should not blossom, nor fruit be on the vines, the produce of the olive fail and the fields yield no food, the flock be cut off from the fold and there be no herd in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the Lord; I will take joy in the God of my salvation. God, the Lord, is my strength; he makes my feet like the deer’s; he makes me tread on my high places. To the choirmaster: with stringed instruments.”
Habakkuk 3:16-19 ESV
In my past, I had moments where I felt nothing was right, and everything was falling apart because of things I did, or didn’t do. I called out to God, and expected an immediate answer. I didn’t get anything, or at least I didn’t think I did. I also did not know how to listen for His voice back then. He worked in me, knew my stubbornness, guided me, and comforted me. Thinking about all of this now, I know Satan was doing his work in me and filling my head with self destruction, self loathing, and causing me to think I wasn’ good enough anymore because things I had done.
I feel like a lot of lessons have been learned since that chapter in my life, and a lot of spiritual and personal growth, too. But one thing that I really did learn is realizing that God is enough. When everything seemed to be falling apart, or not right anymore, and I just wanted to run away from it somehow, He pulled me back and reminded me, He is enough. He is enough to keep me going even when it seems nothing else can.
In Matt Maker’s Song, “Your Grace is Enough”, though a straight forward and otherwise simple song of praise, these words are there, and couldn’t be more true:
Great is Your faithfulness, oh God
You wrestle with the sinner's restless heart
You lead us by still waters into mercy
And nothing can keep us apart
Great is Your love and justice, God of Jacob
You use the weak to lead the strong
You lead us in the song of Your salvation
“Behold, God is my salvation; I will trust, and will not be afraid; for the Lord God is my strength and my song, and he has become my salvation.”
Isaiah 12:2 ESV
When you struggle with things not going how you expected, or you find yourself so deep in repentance you don’t feel like God will ever forgive you for everything, and you worry the people around you will never understand or forgive you either, just remember, God is enough. He is enough to forgive you always. He is enough to help you overcome these things. He is enough to prepare the hearts of those around you so you can confront those you need to confront. God is enough.
“Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord God is an everlasting rock.”
Isaiah 26:4 ESV